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  Just then Liam walks over and grabs Lila’s hand. He looked me in the eyes and said, “Evan, thanks for coming. It means a lot to Lila.”

  “No thanks needed Liam, she knows I will always be here for her.” I said as I felt my fist ball up. The hate he had in his eyes when he looked at me. I did him a favor, I kept his girl company while he couldn’t.

  “Evan, why don’t you join us all back at the house? We are having dinner and drinks. It would mean a lot if you did.” Lila said as she touched my arm

  Damn, why did she have to be so beautiful? I still loved her no matter what she had done. She was just following her heart. The heart that I was madly in love with, the heart that borrowed mine and then broke it.

  “I’m not sure if that’s a good idea Lila. I better be going.”

  “No, don’t be silly, you can join us.” She said has she pulled my arm toward the rest of the crowd. I wasn’t sure how everyone else felt about her ex fiancé tagging along. But I was very uncomfortable, and felt like I was intruding.

  Once we were at the Carls’s, everyone was sitting around laughing, joking, and eating. Lila made me a plate and brought it to me. I could see Liam staring us down.

  “Oh thanks Lila, but I’m not hungry. I ate this morning.” I said as I tried not to look into her beautiful eyes.

  “Evan, you came all the way here, and I know you like potato salad so please eat with us.” She said as she sat next to me.

  Ahh hell, I couldn’t say no to her. I take the plate and I started to eat and Liam walked over. He looked at the two of us sitting there eating and then told Lila he was going to fix himself a plate. Oh fuck, she fed me and not him that thought made me smile.

  I ate, then talked to Mrs. Carls, Nikki, and Brody. I figured it was time for me to go. I couldn’t stay here any longer. Looking at my darling Lila with her future husband was breaking me. Fuck, even with everything that happened with Bryn, this had hurt me just as bad. I lost Bryn, Tatum, and now Lila.

  “Lila, I’m going to go. I wish you the best and take care of yourself.” I said as I hugged her.

  “Wait, I want to talk to you in private please?” she asked as she took my and lead me out into the guest house. I didn’t see Liam anywhere, he must have not known she was bringing me out here.

  “Lila, I should go. This is hurting me so bad to see you with him.” I said as I ran my hands through my hair.

  She walked over and ran her hand over my face, God she smelled great. She was wearing a black low cut dress with a pair of black knee boots. She leaned forward and starting running her hands across my chest. Fuck, what is she doing? My dick was instantly hard, and I hadn’t been in her in four months.

  “Lila, what are you doing? We can’t do this anymore. You made your choice.” I said as I kissed her forehead.

  “I want you Evan, you are all I think about. I need you inside of me one last time. I have dreamed of making love to you again. I need you now, please Evan, you can’t walk away from me right now. I’m so broken inside and out. I love Liam and I will continue to be with him. But he isn’t you. I fell so fucking hard for you and it’s driving me crazy.” She said as she started kissing me.

  “Lila, this is the last time. I will give you whatever you need or want.” I said as I picked her up and wrapped her legs around my waist. She started unzipping my pants and stroking me, I slid her panties to the side and I slid myself inside of her. She was so warm and wet. “Oh Lila, I love you so fucking much. I have wanted to be with you every goddamn day since you left.”

  “Evan, I love you. I love the way you feel inside of me. Please show me how much you love me. Make love to me like you never have before.” She said as she pushed further into my body.

  With every thrust I made I knew I could never have her again, I could feel my build up. “Lila, I’m ready to come, I need to pull out.” I said, I wasn’t wearing a condom.

  “No please, Evan. Don’t, I want all of you. I need it, I need you.” She said as she cried out my name.

  “Fuck, Lila I can’t hold it any longer.” I had her pushed up against the wall and as I came, she did too. I could feel our bodies rocking against each other. It felt so wonderful being inside of her and kissing her all over.

  “Evan, that was incredible. I love you so much and I’m so sorry for hurting you. I hope in time we can be friends again.” She said kissing me.

  “I have to go Lila, you need to get back inside. I will always love you and be your friend no matter what. Have a nice life, Lila.” I said as I kissed her and walked away. I walked past the front porch and saw Liam and Ashton standing there talking. I looked at them both and said, “See ya around”

  They both said “See Ya” and I went on my way. I didn’t feel bad about what had happened, he had her heart and that’s all that mattered. I had her one last time and he would have her the rest of his life.

  I went and checked into a hotel, I needed to shower and a drink. I was going to catch a flight out in the morning. I called my dad and told him everything, I hadn’t completely been honest with him about Lila. I even told him what happened today. He said he knew something was going on but waited for me to come to him.

  I showered and ordered dinner. Then I received and text from Brody.

  Brody: You fucked her didn’t you? I think Liam knows. Where are you, we aren’t leaving until tomorrow.

  Me: I made love to her, just as she asked me to. I’m at the Marriott. Come over dude and have a drink.

  Brody: That’s my man, okay I will. Nikki is staying with Lila for a while so I will hang out with you.

  When he arrived, I ordered some champagne and we hit up the mini bar. Those little drinks needed to bigger that’s for sure. I think we drank everything that was in there and ordered more. I hated to see my bill in the morning. It was for sure worth it the way I was feeling.

  “Hey Brody, you fucked any seals lately?” I asked laughing

  “Hell the fuck no, dude. That was a onetime fuck up.”

  “Yeah, she is a wild one for sure. She is the only one that will ever love me though.” I said as I felt tears in my eyes.

  “Fuck bro, you crying?” he said as he hugged me

  “I’m good just thinking. If you really love Nikki, then tell her. Don’t let any other jerk have her.” I said patting him on his back.

  “You will not end up with Alyssa, you will find your forever, I promise you, dude. She is out there.”

  “Yeah, I guess you’re right, bro. Thanks”

  Three in a half years later

  I’d been working at the law firm as a Trial Lawyer for a year now. I’d been there for six years all together and lived in the same damn place. Brody lived in Ohio with Nikki, and Zander was back in Alabama. Audrey had moved too, so the only person I had was Alyssa. I couldn’t stand her half the time, but she was my only friend left here. She worked at another law firm down the street. I hadn’t slept with her in years, but she was always around. The one person I could count on to never leave me. No matter what I was going through she was there. Sometimes I wish she wasn’t, she’d never really betrayed me or screwed me over. I just didn’t have any romantic feelings towards her. She never had a steady boyfriend, I knew deep down she thought I was just going to eventually give into her and be with her, but I wasn’t.

  I was having lunch with some co-workers the other day when Brody called and said Lila was flying to New York for a wedding. Lila was now married to Liam, and they had twin girls. She was a lawyer and was doing really well. I was happy for them. I would love to see her but it would bring back old memories. I didn’t even have her number anymore. I knew I would see her next year at Nikki and Brody’s wedding. Yep, he finally popped the big question. I was happy for the two of them. They had always loved each other and they found their way back to one another after all.

  I was having dinner with Alyssa at the café, she had a case she wanted my opinion on. I was so tired, I just went straight there from work. We were standing in the cor
ner getting ready to get a table and I saw her. It was Lila, she looked a little older. Her hair was shorter and she was a little thicker. But she was still beautiful.

  “Evan, is that who the fuck I think it is?” said Alyssa

  “I think it is her.” I said as I stood there in shock

  I think Lila noticed us as well, she turned around and had a shocked look on her face. Then she walked over to us.

  “Well, hey Evan, Alyssa. How are you? Are you two married?” she asked

  “Hey, and no, we are not married.” I said

  “Well Lila Carls, I heard you are a big fancy lawyer now.” Said Alyssa as she wrapped her arm around mine.

  “It’s Carls-Ellis and yes, I am.”

  Oh damn, she had to throw Liam’s name in there. She still hated Alyssa I could tell. I wanted to hug her tell her how much I missed her. But I didn’t, I just stood there with my hands in my pocket.

  “Well it was good seeing y’all, I have to get going.” She said as she turned to walk away.

  “Yeah you too, sweets.” Said Alyssa.

  I was just ready to go home now, I was tired and seeing her just made my heart skip a few beats. I ended up going home, Alyssa was kind of pissed and wanted to join me, but I told her I needed alone time. I was so glad it was Friday. I thought about going to see my dad that weekend but wasn’t sure. I hadn’t been to see my grandparents in a few years. I haven’t heard anything from Tatum. When I talked to Zander he didn’t mention her. I was sure she is a doctor by now.

  I heard a knock at the door and I knew exactly who it was, I knew she would come see me.

  “Hey Lila, come on in.” Fuck, she is so goddamn beautiful.

  “Is this a bad time? If so I can go.” She started to walk away.

  “Nope, it’s okay. Want a beer?” I said, walking to the fridge.

  “Sure, that would be great.” She said as she sat on the couch. I walked over and sat next to her, and handed her a beer. I could see she was nervous, hell, I was nervous.

  “So, how are you Lila?” I asked

  “Good, I’m here for Heather’s wedding.”

  “Yeah, I heard she was getting married.”

  There was silence then we talked for a couple hours. She showed me pics of her girls and told me stories about them. She talked about Eric and his new girlfriend, and Brody and Nikki.

  “Lila, let’s go to the park?” I asked hoping she would agree.

  “Sounds great, I thought you would never ask.”

  We left for the park hand in hand, just like the old times. It felt so good talking to her and holding her hand. I had only had sex four times since our last time together, I just was tired of the one night stands and couldn’t find anyone I was interested in. We had a hotdog from the cart and watched the ducks eat, and then she asked if I wanted to get a drink at the hotel with her. I knew I shouldn’t but I did.

  We had several drinks, and then we danced. She still smelled as good as she did years ago. My heart was breaking all over again, I couldn’t let her back in. Hell, who was I kidding, I had never stopped loving her, I could honestly say the only person I loved this much was Tatum, but she too chose someone else over me.

  “Lila, what are we doing here?” I asked as she laid her head on my chest.

  “Evan, I’m not sure. It feels right to me. I’ve missed you so much. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you. Please come back and stay with me tonight. I need you more than you will ever know.

  “Lila, it’s not a good idea. You are married now. I don’t think I can.”

  “Please, just one night, Evan.” She said as she kissed me.

  Fuck, how could I say no? I started kissing her we made our way to the elevator and I was ready to take her right there. I wanted to rip her clothes off and wrap her legs around my waist and just fuck the hell out of her.

  Once in the room she started undressing me and her. She was still beautiful even after having children, her body was perfect. I started kissing her breast then worked my way down, I needed taste her. I hadn’t tasted her in so long, I felt like I would come once my tongue stroked her clit, she was so wet and tasted so fucking good.

  “Evan, please fuck me now. I need you inside of me.” She begged

  I kissed my way back up and guided myself inside of her and it was like fireworks going off. Her warm wetness wrapped around my throbbing shaft was the best feeling ever. We made mad, and I mean mad, passionate love all goddamn night. I awoke to her giving me some much needed head. I loved the way she always sucked the tip and slid her tongue up and down as she cupped my balls.

  “Good morning beautiful, now it’s my turn.” I said as I picked her up and took her to the shower, and made love again. Then we ordered breakfast. Her phone was ringing and I could tell it was Liam. She started crying when she hung up. I just held her and told her it was fine and that we couldn’t do this again.

  “I know Evan. I just love and miss you so much. I know it’s wrong of me. I love Liam and my life so much, but I have always wanted you in my life, too.” She said as she cried on my chest.

  “Come on you have a wedding to attend and then I will see you after words.” I said as I started to get dressed

  I left knowing I couldn’t be with her ever again. She went to the wedding and I went into the office, I had a case I needed to look at before Monday. Just as she said, Lila called me after the wedding and I met her at the hotel. I stayed with her and held her all night. I took her to the airport the next morning. I loved her so much that I was letting her go again. I made a vow to myself that I was going to move on and put her in the past just like the others. I kissed her goodbye for the last time.

  I was on my way home when I got a phone call, it was Zander. He wouldn’t tell me anything except come to Alabama. I had no fucking clue what was going on. All I could think about was my grandparents, thinking something was wrong with one of them. I turned around and went back to the airport. He had said to call him when I arrived in Birmingham and he would pick me up.

  It took me eight hours to get there. I didn’t even bring any bags with me. I would have to get some clothes once I found out what was going on. I saw Zander and Audrey from a distance. Then Audrey came running into my arms.

  “Oh God Evan, I’m so glad you are here. She needs you badly. He almost killed her but she got him good.” Audrey said laughing

  “What is going on, who are you talking about?” I seethed

  “Bro, fucking Thayer tried to kill Tatum, he beat the fuck out of her and shot her. Somehow she managed to get the gun from him and she shot him in the shoulder, and did so much damage that he had to have his arm amputated. I guess along with abuse all these years, he threatened to hurt her loved ones if she left him.” Zander said with unshed tears in his eyes.

  “I want to kill that mother fucker, please tell me they aren’t in the same hospital?” I asked

  “No, they have him on lock down, he is going to jail for a long time.”

  “Good Zan, that piece of shit doesn’t deserve to breathe the same air as Ta. Now get me to her.” I said

  My beautiful Tatum laid there with all kinds of machines and wires around her. Her beautiful blonde hair was full of blood. He had shot her, broken her ribs, her arm, and her nose. She was alive and was going to have a long recovery. I couldn’t believe that bastard would hurt her like that. She was so little and beautiful.

  “Ta, I’m here baby. I’m never leaving your side. I will spend the rest of my life making you happy and making sure you are protected. He will never touch you again. Baby if you can hear me squeeze my hand.” I said and I felt her squeeze as a tear rolled down her cheek. “Can you open your eyes Ta, open them for me please.” I said as I ran my hand along her cheek bone. She started blinking her eyes and tried to talk. “Shhh… Baby, it’s okay. I’m here. It’s me."

  I called for a nurse to come in and young tall girl walked in. “My name is Ali and I’m Miss Kelley’s day nurse. Looks like our girl wants to talk.
” She said, she started removing wires and tubes, and Tatum’s eyes opened and she held my hand tightly.

  “It’s okay, love. I’m here and I’m not leaving you. You can talk soon and you can tell me everything.” I said rubbing her face.

  “Okay, she should be okay now. Let me know if you need anything else.” The nurse said as she walked out.

  “Ev…Evan, thanks you for coming. I have missed you so much. I love you so much. I always have and always will. He was going to kill you if I left him. That first day I saw you after all those years, he said I had to marry him and if I didn’t, he would kill you.” She cried

  “Oh sweetheart, I’m here and I’m fine. Don’t cry, love. He will never hurt either of us again. I promise you that.” I said before I bent down to kiss her forehead.

  “Do you still want me Evan?” she asked with tears falling down her bruised cheeks.

  “Tatum Kelley, I have loved and wanted you since I could remember. This time I’m not letting you go. I will say I have loved and been broken more than once. If you are giving me one hundred percent and aren’t borrowing my heart again, it’s all yours darlin’.” I said as I kissed her.

  “Yes, I have never loved anyone but you. I knew that someday I would be in your arms for good.” She said as she kissed me back.

  Audrey walked in with Zander and said, “Holy hell, I fucking knew it. Yes you can finally bang the hell out of this hottie.” I just looked at her and laughed.

  “Audrey, you talk to fucking much. Do you ever know how to shut the fuck up?” Zander said looking at her.

  “Ahh, fuck you Zan. I don’t understand why the hell you always run your pussy eater. That’s why you are single.” Audrey said as she crossed her arms.

  “No, I’m single because I can’t deal with people with mouths like yours, that’s all you do is run it. And the shit that come out of it, who the hell would want to kiss someone that fucking talks like that?”