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  “Evan, I want to go to Paris. Do you want to go?” She blurted out.

  “Well that sounds fun, yes eventually I would like to go. We just talked about this a couple months ago, Lila.” I said as I sipped my coffee.

  “I know, but I just wanted to make sure you remembered.”

  “Yes, and I would love to go to Paris with you. Maybe in a few years.”

  She just laughed and started eating her BLT. This girl could put eat a pound of bacon and want more, where it goes to I have no clue, she is super thin. After we finished eating I took Lila back to the loft.

  “Okay, what movie will it be tonight?” I asked as I threw some popcorn in the microwave. She plopped down on the couch and flipped through the channels and busted out laughing. “What’s so damn funny?” I asked as I walked into the living room. Then I heard it, fucking Brody had some chick in his room. Her moans was loud and fake as hell.

  “Ahh, let’s go to my room, no movie tonight.” I said as I pulled Lila in the room and kiss her. She kissed me back, then I felt bad for doing it. I knew she could tell that I did.

  She looked at me and said, “It’s okay, you can kiss me whenever you want, Evan.”

  “Oh, I can? I’m glad you said that, because I wanted to kiss you again” I said as I pushed my lips into hers. I could feel the heat from her body on mine, I turned her around so her back fell on the bed as I pushed into her harder. I felt a moan escape her chest.

  “I’m going to change, into something more comfortable. Do you want something?” I asked as I grabbed a pair of sweats from the dresser.

  “Yes, just a t-shirt.” She said as she started taking her clothes off. When she pulled her shirt above her head I could see her nipple through her pink lace bra, she slid her pants down and she was wearing a pair of pink lace boy shorts that matched that bra.

  “Jesus Lila, your killing me.” I said laughing as I walked into the bathroom to change.

  “No way Mister, get back out here. Sit on the bed now, please.”

  “Damn, you’re sexy when you’re bossy.”

  “Pants off and lay back.” She said as she helped pull my jeans down.

  “Commando? Hmm... I like that.” She said with a giggle

  “I like what you’re wearing too, although you are pretty damn sexy in my t-shirts.” I said as I pulled her on top of me. She had her bra and panties on but I was butt ass naked. I started kissing her and worked my way down to her heat. “I like how wet I make you.” I said as I pulled her panties off. She wasn’t just wet, she was dripping wet.

  “I like how wet you make me too! Now let me do what I was planning to do.” She said as she raised up and pushed me back on the bed. She kissed my chest and made her way down, she took my length in her hand and licked the tip. I let out a groan, and threw my head back. “Do you like that Evan?” she asked before she licked the pre cum off of my shaft.

  “Hmm, I do…” Was all I could get out, before her lips were wrapped around me and she was sucking full force. I wrapped my hands in her hair and pushed her head further down, I knew she couldn’t take the rest of my length. Well that’s what I’d thought but she surprised me, she made a humming sound in her throat and took my entire length. I could feel my balls tighten, and I knew I was getting ready to release. She must have felt it to, she started sucking harder and faster.

  “Holy. Fucking. Shit.” I roared as I rocked my hips into her mouth. I felt every ounce of me dripping down her throat. She released my dick from her mouth with a popping sound.

  “I love you Evan.” She said as she winked at me.

  “I love you Lila.”

  Eleven Months Later

  Lila and I have been seeing each other for almost a year. She never heard from Liam, they wasn’t sure what had happened to him. They sent a letter saying he was missing along with ten other soldiers, and I felt so bad. I knew Lila still missed him, and loved him. She had been so strong about everything. We had a great summer together we went on a road trip to Pittsburg. We even went and spent time with my dad. He was doing better, I knew he missed my mom so damn bad.

  “Hey love, are you ready? Our flight leaves in an hour.” Lila said as she walked out of the kitchen.

  “Yep, I’m all packed. Are you ready?” We were flying to her parents for Thanksgiving, all the family was going to be there. She planned a huge shopping trip with Addison, and I was going fishing with her dad and brother. I was definitely nervous, I had a huge surprise planned for when we returned to NYC. Brody and Nikki helped me plan everything. Yes they were back together.

  We rented a car and drove to the Carls’s place. I wanted to get her dad alone so I could ask him if I could marry Lila. I knew it’s kind of old fashioned but I wouldn’t feel right popping the question without his permission. Eric and Addison was already there and so was Ashton. I finally got to meet the jerk. He was actually a nice guy. His wife was a nice lady also. All the girls went to the kitchen and all of us guys went to the family room to watch TV.

  “So Evan, Lila tell me you are graduating next year?” Mr. Carls said.

  “Yes, Sir, I will. I already have a job at a small law firm. I have worked there on and off the last four years.”

  “That’s great son, I really like the fact that you and Lila are both into law.”

  “Yes, I like that too, Sir. Maybe someday she and I can open a practice together.” I said kind of hinting around. He just smiled and continued watching TV.

  Dinner was great, all the ladies was going shopping and us men was going fishing, this was the day. I just hoped Lila’s dad didn’t kill me for asking to marry his daughter.

  “Sir, I wanted to ask you a question.” I said to Ray.

  “Of course, ask away kid.” He said

  “I would like to ask Lila to marry me. Is that okay with you Sir?” I was a nervous fucking wreck, my palms were sweating, I could feel sweat beads on my forehead. He just looked at me, he didn’t say a word. He just stared. Oh fuck, he was going to throw my ass over bored.

  “Well Evan, if you love her and I mean really love her, then that’s fine by me son. Welcome to the family.” He said shaking my hand. Thank you Jesus, I could have seen me floating in that water.

  “Thank you Sir, that means a lot.” I said shaking his hand.

  “Let’s get back to the house, see what damage those girls did with my credit cards.” He said, laughing.

  We went back to the house the girls had bought so much stuff. I was tired and ready to go home. I needed to do this while I was ready. I knew Lila wasn’t ready to go but I had to work all weekend. Well, she thought I did. We said our goodbyes and flew back to NYC.

  Once we landed in New York, I grabbed our bags and walked Lila to the Limo.

  “Um Evan? A limo?” she asked

  “Yes, come on you will see.” I said as I grabbed her hand. We got into the limo and everything was perfect; the music, the flowers, and the wine.

  “Lila, I wanted to ask you a question. I know it has been a rough road and crazy one, but it has led us to here. I love you with all of my heart and I can’t see my life without you. I would be a very happy man of you would be my wife, be my forever Lila?” I said as I opened the ring box. I had worked my ass off to pay for it.

  “Yes! Yes, Evan I will!! OMIGOSH…I love you so much. It is beautiful. Thank you baby.” She said as she kissed me.

  “I have our entire night planned out, I hope you love it!” I said as I pulled her in for a hug.

  “How did you do this?” she asked with a concerned look.

  “I did have a little help.” I winked

  The hotel room looked great. Audrey had come and decorated and bought Lila some new lingerie. I had to give it to Audrey, she did a fantastic job. There were pink rose pedals everywhere. She’d bought two bottles of Lila’s favorite wine and chocolate covered strawberries and marshmallows.

  “Evan, this is so beautiful. I can’t believe you did all this for me.” She said with tears in her eyes.

>   “Hey, what are the tears for? I will do anything for you always!” I said as I wiped her tears.

  I started kissing her and taking her clothes off, God I was the one lucky bastard. She was beautiful, every inch of her. I started at her neck and worked my way down, until I licked every part of her body.

  “Oh, Evan I need you inside of me. Please, take me now.”

  “Baby, I will trust me. I want to remember this night forever. I want to savior every minute.” I was ready to be inside her, but I just wanted to touch and kiss her all night. I was just getting started.

  “Tell me how much you love and want me baby.” I said as I slid a finger in my future wife’s wet heat.

  “I love you so fucking much, I want you to fuck me hard, Evan. I want all of you inside of me.” She said as she pushed into my hand.

  “You ready for me baby? You ready to have all of me in that sweet pussy?”

  “Oh Evan, I’m. Please, give it to me I can’t take it anymore. Make love to me.”

  I didn’t bother using a condom, she was on the pill, and hell, she was going to be my wife. I kneeled between her legs and I guided myself in her. She let out a small moan. I pulled out and just inserted the tip and she moaned again.

  “Evan, quit teasing me. I want you to fuck me nice and hard.” She begged.

  “Oh my girl likes it nice and hard does she?”

  “Yes, you know I do!”

  I gave it to her nice and hard just as she begged. God I loved making love to her. She could do things to me that no woman had ever done. We made love for hours in different positions. As we came as one, I felt closer to her than I have ever felt.

  “I want to call Ads and Nik, but I think I will wait till morning. I just want to sleep in your arms.”

  “I will hold you all night, my love. Get some sleep darling.” I said as I kissed her.

  We awoke to some pretty bad news. Lila’s friend Addison had been shot and was in critical condition. Lila was flying back home and Brody and I was going back the next day. I was so worried about Lila and I didn’t want her to go alone, but I had things at work I needed to do. I called Nikki, and she was leaving Ohio to go be with Lila.

  I went to work and did everything I had to do and flew back to California. When I got there for some reason Lila thought I was Liam. I wasn’t sure if she was dreaming or what was going on.

  “Baby, it’s me Evan, I’m here now.”

  “Oh Evan, she is dying. What am I going to do without her?” she cried

  God, how could I take this pain away from her I felt so bad and I knew she was hurting. They finally turned the machines off and she was gone, Lila lost it.

  It had been three weeks since our engagement and since Addison died. Lila had been so distance and all she did was cry, it’s like her losing Liam all over again. Hell, she wouldn’t eat or sleep. I worried about her so much. She was going home for Christmas but I was going to Utah. I hated that we wouldn’t be together but she needed to be with all of them. I needed to be with my dad. He hadn’t been doing well.

  When it came time, we went our separate ways. My dad was so happy to see me, and my grandparents had even drove out to spend the weekend with us. It was great seeing all of them. Lila text me and said that her and her mom was shopping for wedding things. I told my family about the engagement and my dad was so thrilled. Gran, well she wasn’t, she still had a soft spot for Tatum, who was still with Thayer.

  I had been home for a few days and couldn’t get a hold of Lila. I called her mom and she informed me that Liam was alive, they had found him. He wasn’t injured too badly, he has been in a hospital in Colorado. I took the first flight that I could to go get my fiancé, but it was too late. He had her back. He and I fought, and she and I argued but he had always had her. She was never mine, she was just borrowing me so she could push me back when he returned. She warned me, I didn’t listen though. I thought she was mine then.

  “Lila, I love you so much baby. Are you just going to throw away everything we have to run back to him? You have been with me all this time, I’m the one who has been here for you through everything. Not him!” I said as I grabbed her arm

  “I told you, I would go back to him. He has my heart, I can’t throw away what I have with him. He loves me more than anything and look what he has been through. There’s no way I can leave him.” She said as she wiped her tears.

  “What the fuck can I do to change your mind? You are my fiancé Lila. I need you… You can’t leave me like this. You are ripping my heart out of my chest.”

  “Evan…please… I can’t do this, I will go back to New York with you, but I’m coming back here.”

  Fuck. I lost her. I lost Bryn, Tatum, and now Lila. I have messed everything up. I was going to be alone for the rest of my life. Everyone I wanted, wanted someone else.

  We flew back to NYU and she got all of her stuff together. I was angry and hurt, I didn’t know what to feel. Brody and Zander tried to comfort me, but it wasn’t working. She told me over and over how sorry she was. How the hell is that supposed to make everything better?

  “Lila, please be with me one last night. Let me love you one last time baby.” I said as I hugged her tightly. I needed her so goddamn bad, I wanted to fuck her so bad, and show her how I wanted her.

  “Evan, it will only hurt you more. I love you so much, but I know it’s killing you to watch me go. I can’t hurt you anymore.” She said as she kissed me lips.

  “Be with me, let me love you tonight, and I will let you go and be with him. Just give me this. Please.”

  “Evan, just tonight and I’m going back.” She said as she started kissing me.

  I pushed my lips into hers as hard as I could and heard a moan escape her mouth. I started undressing her, she wrapped her legs around my waist, and I pushed her against the wall as she reached down and unbuttoned my jeans. She took my length in her small hand and I let out a groan. “I love you so fucking much, Lila. I always will” I said as I ran my tongue down her neck. I carried her to the counter and took the rest of her clothes off and positioned myself between her legs.

  I started kissing her lips and worked my way down to her breasts. I rubbed her left nipple between my fingers as I sucked her right one. She was so ready for me I could tell, she threw her head back against the cabinet and said, “Now Evan, I want you inside of me now.” I couldn’t just yet I had to savor every last minute with her, she put her hands between her legs and started massaging her swollen bud. She was so fucking sexy, I grabbed her ankles and scooted her half way of the counter, I kneeled down and went straight to where her fingers were and replaced them with my mouth. She tasted so sweet and salty.

  “Oh… God… Evan, right there, please don’t stop.” She begged as she pushed my head further into her sweetness. She had already came several times. I was so goddamn hard, I wanted to be in her so bad.

  “You ready for me, baby?” I asked as I kissed her neck. She grabbed my head with both hands and pushed her lips onto mine, she sucked my lower lip in between her teeth and dug her nails into my back.

  “Now…Evan, I want to feel all of you.” She said as she reached down and guided me inside of her. I could feel her tighten around my swollen cock, I wanted to make love to her all night long. With each thrust it brought back all the wonderful memories we shared, all the time we had made love in the last year. All the little trips we took. I had spent the last year of my life loving this woman, and now tonight was our last night together. I felt the tears welling up in my eyes, I didn’t hold back and I let them fall. I showed her how much I loved her with every inch of me deep inside her. I pulled out, knowing I would come at any moment.

  “Evan, God I love you so much. I love the way you make love to me. Please come inside of me. I want all of you tonight, let me have it all.” She said as she cried with me. I guided myself back inside of her and gave her a couple thrust, I could feel every drop exploding inside of her. We were both panting and out of breath, I laid my head on
her chest and cried like I had never cried before. I cried like a goddamn baby.

  “I hate seeing you like this, Evan. Please know it’s hurting me to do this to you.”

  “I know, you have to follow your heart and you were never mine,” I said as I pulled my jeans up.

  “Stay with me tonight, just hold me.” She said as she kissed my neck

  “Okay, I will.” I said as I ran my hands through my hair. I was a wreck. I held her in my arms all night long, I got up and ran to the café and got her a BLT and left her a letter. That would be the last I saw of one of the woman who borrowed my heart.

  It’s been four months since I have seen Lila, she had a life with Liam. Brody called me to tell me that her father had passed away. I knew I shouldn’t go but I needed to. Nikki and Brody would be there, so I figured it would be okay. I needed to pay my respects and get on with my life. Yep, I could do this. I got ready and I flew to Cali. I arrived a little early, so I went to Addison’s grave and took flowers. I really liked her and I knew that she was all for Lila and I being together.

  “Well, I’m sure you know by now that your cousin is back. I’m really glad he is okay. The fucked up part is I lost Lila forever. Hell, I knew she was never mine. I was just filling that void. Ads, I know Lila could really use you right now. So please watch over her. You will be seeing Mr. Carls soon.” As I stood up I saw a yellow butterfly land on Addison’s stone.

  I arrived at the memorial service and I saw everyone, but I just stood alone, I didn’t want to intrude. Lila was standing in between Nikki and Liam. Seeing her hold onto him made me sick. I couldn’t hate him though, I knew when I fell for her that she was his. I knew eventually she would run back to him with open arms. Lila noticed me and after the service she walked over to me, along with Nikki and Brody.

  “Evan, thank you for coming. I’m really glad you did.” She whispered in my ear as she hugged me.

  “Lila, I’m really sorry for your loss. Your father was a great man.” I said as I hugged her back.